"Loathness" is a word in ENGLISH

loathness ENGLISH
Definition:

Unwillingness; reluctance.

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When we do not fully and equally represent the masculine and the feminine in church and civic leadership, we cannot represent the human experience or Jesus.

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reluctancy ENGLISH

The state or quality of being reluctant; repugnance; aversion of mind; unwillingness; -- often followed by an infinitive, or by …

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repugnancy ENGLISH

The state or condition of being repugnant; opposition; contrariety; especially, a strong instinctive antagonism; aversion; reluctance; unwillingness, as of mind, …

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