"Esoterically" is a word in ENGLISH
In an esoteric manner.
The moral of the story is even though that seemed like the end of the world back then, right now I can look back on it and laugh. And if anyone is going through something similar right now just know it will get better.
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Communicated orally; oral; -- applied to the esoteric teachings of Aristotle, those intended for his genuine disciples, in distinction from …
Read the complete definitionDesigned for, and understood by, the specially initiated alone; not communicated, or not intelligible, to the general body of followers; …
Read the complete definitionEsoteric.
Read the complete definitionEsoteric doctrine or principles.
Read the complete definitionMysterious or hidden doctrines; secret science.
Read the complete definitionMystery; esoterics; -- opposed to exotery.
Read the complete definitionExternal; public; suitable to be imparted to the public; hence, capable of being readily or fully comprehended; -- opposed to …
Read the complete definitionThe public lectures or published writings of Aristotle. See Esoterics.
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